How you can be so happy with someone and all of a sudden things are just so different. That you thought you could not live without them but in the end you have to accept the nothing last forever. Though it's hard to think that the person you love, loves you so much but you realized that you were wrong.
If someone loves you so much or when they say that their love is real, they are willing to give up everything, be with the person that they love no matter what the cost and do everything or at least try to in that case.
Well, it's sad that the person that I thought who loves me cannot do all that. She always said that she wants to be with me, live with me. But she always have excuses for her not to be. She said she cannot leave her family behind, but we are suppose to start our own. That she will only come and live with me when we are married. But as I have said, it doesn't matter, loving someone should be with no conditions.
It just hurt so badly that knowing that our love could end this way. I really thought that she is the one. The one that I will spend the rest of my life with. The face that I see every morning I woke up. The one that I would be with having a cup of tea in the afternoon sitting down watching the sunset when I am old.
All I can do is hope, but that's always what I have from the beginning. But I could never be the person that she is looking for. I can't live up with her expectations. For in the first place as what she have said, I am not rich and fuck that I am not that good looking either. And that shit came from her own mouth.
It's hard to say goodbye but sometimes we have to. Or maybe I'll say goodbye by simple fading out of her life. And maybe someday she will find what she is looking for.
